I won in a game of monopoly against computers! 
It’s totally some hard stuff. D:<
And I was only on medium mode!
Still, it was pretty awesome. Took me 9 tries. XD 

Going to a gumball machine and eating the gumball…
ONLY TO FIND OUT..
it wasn’t a gumball machine… =3= 

It started a few years ago.
A boy hated change.
He hated so much, he claimed, “I’ll always be the same. I’ll never change.”

It was a fully determined, yet very naive thought.

He loved his friends, so much that he’d do anything for them.
Sadly as years passed by, he felt like his friends started to drift away.

He thought his friends had changed.
As he tried his best to find what went wrong, he could not see anything.

He looked in the mirror and his mindset has not changed..
or was it an illusion?

Had he changed to point where he thought he hasn’t?

His heart caved under the pressure.
His convictions paved his path as the others paved theirs.

Their paths coincide with each other, but not as often with this boy.
He was distracted by where his path led, and not where he was now.

It was a foolish thought to think that a person can prevent change, but it’s inevitable. He cried.

The person he thought he was years ago had become something different of what he was.
A man who ran away from the truth, but finally returned, only to find little of what he expected.

Underneath that body of pride and testosterone, lived insecurity and emotion. 
Fear coursed through his veins and anxiety struck his nervous system. 

I can no longer keep up my charade.
They said I could cry when it was all over.
But when is it over?
As of right now, I’ll say it is.

I’ve always said that I am contradiction.
And for someone who knew so much, he knew nothing about himself.

Do I want comfort? Do I want help?

I’ll just say I don’t know.
Maybe I’m overthinking things. Maybe I’m right. Maybe it’s a good possibility. Maybe I’m just having a bad day.

There’s no correct answer to life, so how will you answer?

If you can stop the lies. I will.
I feel like I don’t belong. I don’t even know where I am. 
It’s okay. 
I’ll handle it.
It’s just another one of those bad days.
It’s time to just sleep it off.

Signed,

Paul Marvin C. Lazarra 

If you don’t like me, say it. I know I haven’t done this, and damn I know I’m a hypocrite. So whatever you feel bro, I’ll listen. Stop talking to everyone behind my back and just say it to my face. I know you have your reasons for judging me, but 1.) I’m not you. 2.) You do not think the way I think, so how can you understand my perspective? Seriously, you’re being NAIVE. 3.) You god damn think you know it all, but you will never know 100% of the story.

So please, if you have a problem with me, talk to me about it. That’s what psychologists do. If you want to hit me, don’t be surprised if I hit you back. Before you judge me, try to understand why. 

pure-pure-heart:

I have to apologize for the sudden disappearance, but I’m trying to juggle school (mid-terms!), some photography, blogging and Ragnarok Online.

I HAVE NO REGRETS

I’ll do the BTS account of the Valentines shoot soon, I promise. Later.

I’m actually in there!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD 
I HAVE NO REGRETS (LACKS SO MUCH SLEEP)